I... I didn't. [ it's a swell of guilt at that. curling into herself with a wince, the pain still there and real. ] ..I told someone that I'd, be careful if anything happened, that I would run away but.. I couldn't.
[ she couldn't run away. so deeply ingrained was the mission, to face everything till the end no matter how much it hurt. ] And yet, I.. I couldn't even fight, even with my- the sword. I.. I knew how to but, I--
[ she couldn't bring herself to use it. even with the experience and knowledge of a swordsman, she couldn't. and then very, very quietly- like a whisper, gaze unfocused as if she's reliving it. the crushing pain, the fear curling tight-- ] I... did get to protect Prompto. [ which there was relief for that, but that fear is lingering. ] ..Death is.. was, a lot scarier than I expected it to be. It's normal, for people to think about it, isn't it? I.. never have, before here.
[ she looks to her hands, as lightly bandaged as they are. ] It doesn't really, prepare you for the second time either... [ will she die a third? stay tuned ]
You just told me you couldn't run away. That because you couldn't due to circumstance, or because you couldn't because of who you are and what you want?
... Fighting's not something you can mess up. One wrong move and you die, and there's not really anything I can say to sugar coat that. But running away doesn't guarantee your safety either. It's better to know how to look at the two options and pick one. Fighting's something you can work on, so the hesitation isn't so all-consuming, if you're not used to it.
[ ... ]
It... yeah. It is, huh? Some people can't stop thinking about it. But there are just as many, maybe more who don't think about it and just face it when it finally finds them.
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If you feel like anything’s bleeding, or feels worse, you have to let us know. There’s blankets and towels here we can sort something out.
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They were... healed a bit, I think. So it should be okay.. I don't think I'll be bleeding everywhere. [ ... ] ..Again.
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Meteion… we’ll go back to the Medbay tomorrow. You probably need a little longer in there. [ AGAIN she says… ]
You’re back though. Good job. Even if you don’t think it was, you made it back.
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I'm okay! Aymeric.. and Prompto are only human.. right? It's more important for them, to get healed first. [ she's just a creation bro. ]
...We failed though. Prompto and I... [ her shoulders tremble. ] I.. I should've tried harder, to protect that star.
[ fancy her new black feathers in her plumage? ]
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It's important for you too, Meteion. [ there a firmness in his voice. ]
... I told you about taking everything on your shoulders, didn't I? Did you try with everything you could?
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I... I didn't. [ it's a swell of guilt at that. curling into herself with a wince, the pain still there and real. ] ..I told someone that I'd, be careful if anything happened, that I would run away but.. I couldn't.
[ she couldn't run away. so deeply ingrained was the mission, to face everything till the end no matter how much it hurt. ] And yet, I.. I couldn't even fight, even with my- the sword. I.. I knew how to but, I--
[ she couldn't bring herself to use it. even with the experience and knowledge of a swordsman, she couldn't. and then very, very quietly- like a whisper, gaze unfocused as if she's reliving it. the crushing pain, the fear curling tight-- ] I... did get to protect Prompto. [ which there was relief for that, but that fear is lingering. ] ..Death is.. was, a lot scarier than I expected it to be. It's normal, for people to think about it, isn't it? I.. never have, before here.
[ she looks to her hands, as lightly bandaged as they are. ] It doesn't really, prepare you for the second time either... [ will she die a third? stay tuned ]
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[ he raises a hand, and extends one finger: ]
You just told me you couldn't run away. That because you couldn't due to circumstance, or because you couldn't because of who you are and what you want?
... Fighting's not something you can mess up. One wrong move and you die, and there's not really anything I can say to sugar coat that. But running away doesn't guarantee your safety either. It's better to know how to look at the two options and pick one. Fighting's something you can work on, so the hesitation isn't so all-consuming, if you're not used to it.
[ ... ]
It... yeah. It is, huh? Some people can't stop thinking about it. But there are just as many, maybe more who don't think about it and just face it when it finally finds them.
Give me your hand a second, Meteion.
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[ she's quiet for everything else but, she's listening. she's taking in what he's saying. but at the ask of her hand, she tilts her head a little. ]
Okay.. [ and holds it out, it's lightly bandaged but it's fine. ]
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Feel that? You’re alive, and you’re here. All three of you are.