Sounds like it was pretty rough. No one I've talked to has had a very good time. Get put through a lot that tends to make you think things that aren't true. Nasty stuff.
[he's worried about her, but it's mostly calm worry.]
[ she just quietly nods along, because she certainly feels it... that sensation of despair hanging over her head like a heavy cloud. ]
..Oh. Okay. [ she glances quickly at him before she tries to, the first few incredibly shaky. remnants of her earlier panic attack. it hitches though as she remembers something and curls up a bit tighter. ] I-I'm sorry.
... We were, emotionally bonded with the swords we had there. We felt, everything they did. And they us. I'm.. it's still a lot to wrap my head around..
[ so, she.. really did get roughed more than just the physical injuries sense. ] I- I saw Bass there, too..? Is.. Is he okay, do you know..?
Thank goodness.. [ oh, that's a feeling of relief. good. she's genuinely relieved for that. that's one less worry on her mind. ]
The way they are, created... feels really familiar, to me. So, it wasn't too... wrong. It's just. [ frowns a little more. ] I.. don't think I was meant for war. It's, in my system that I just.. run away at confrontation.
[ alas.. but, she seems to be able to breathe a bit easier, taking in Shale's calmness onto herself. ]
Mmhmm. Some of us might have come into existence in a different way than you, but I don't think it's that different. Some people feel comfortable or even at their best in conflict or a fight, and others don't.
That's okay. It takes all sorts of people. I admire that Kashuu, Yasusada, Buzen, all want to fight for the things they believe in. But it's important to also have those who want to tend gardens and help others feel better.
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[he's worried about her, but it's mostly calm worry.]
Do me a favor? Breath with me for just a bit?
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..Oh. Okay. [ she glances quickly at him before she tries to, the first few incredibly shaky. remnants of her earlier panic attack. it hitches though as she remembers something and curls up a bit tighter. ] I-I'm sorry.
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[ so, she.. really did get roughed more than just the physical injuries sense. ] I- I saw Bass there, too..? Is.. Is he okay, do you know..?
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[hmm, though.]
It does sound like a lot. The swords I've met here are pretty nice people, but I'm not sure being a sword would be for me.
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The way they are, created... feels really familiar, to me. So, it wasn't too... wrong. It's just. [ frowns a little more. ] I.. don't think I was meant for war. It's, in my system that I just.. run away at confrontation.
[ alas.. but, she seems to be able to breathe a bit easier, taking in Shale's calmness onto herself. ]
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That's okay. It takes all sorts of people. I admire that Kashuu, Yasusada, Buzen, all want to fight for the things they believe in. But it's important to also have those who want to tend gardens and help others feel better.
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I.. do like helping others feel better. [ she too admires their strength but it really isn't her. not in a fight, anyways. ]
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